Man’s Timeline from the Divine’s Diary: HE created, HE was the Lamb, He came down to save, HE rose up to an advocate, HE waits for the Bride, HE will come as King, HE will be the Judge, HE will be the Heaven and HE will be the celebration.
August 3, 2010
May 1, 2009
Equations are defined by variables, so is it even in the equations of life, as you progress through the experiment, we seem to add more variables to re-generate the result, framing the equation it self.
English helps with 26, but it took just 1 letter in 3 forms to define my college life. The 3 R’s who authored it. When solution seems to simple, it means the problem is not understood well, yes how do we differentiate between them , when it is already integrated into one, May be suffixes will help. R1, R2, R3. It is the joy and privilege of the inventor to name the variable or associate each of them to their origins. I would even call it the fundamental right of mine.
I know much of my life, or at-least from the adolescence, there was a special place to be filled by a grey haired older person. Some times you find them at home, at times in the schools and colleges. I place a R1 for him, just synonymous with Rabi. The most wonderful guide you get is not the one who always catches your hands lest you fall, but gives you the freedom to try out and test , to fail , to pass , to err and to learn, an opportunity for true learning. He gave it. Made me what it required of me in every stage of college life. Carefully protecting from without showing his presence. A persona that I will never forget, plastic glass, half sleeve shirt, catching the thing that starts with a flame and ends in a R between his fingers and the other hand carefully scanning the text, making his marks of mastery in shades of red. A voice that thunders across halls and class rooms, that still echoes within me. A passionate teacher, a perfect guide, a pillar of some beautiful edifices.
The Second R is what is called the colour full part. The variable that always tries to balance the effect of the surrounding perturbations. It happens that even the darkest shades of hue like me can only be coloured by that smile. What I had become was a connoisseur of her vibrant smile, a protester of those precious drops, a event logger of every step, a photo recorder that captures even the dimmest light between those closed eyes. This variable on your equation is the last thing that you would need to create the beautiful fractal out of the chaos.
These are R’s that you relish, there are some that get ingrained in you, very essential yet unnoticed, whose absence can bend the result to eccentricity. This R my life’s third Reich, It just comes out to rescue when the other two are missing, especially times when it is all dark and eyes see no colour. A shoulder to stick on, a ear to hear all my lamentations. A good friend of mine, the companion of all my on-duties, a transporter so special, a fund raiser, you don’t need another pie , who knows every page of mine, even those errors and mistakes that I would laugh at my self for.
They were variables, but also the very constants of my college life.
February 14, 2009
Don’t Know when you entered, May be you didn’t
But I made the mistake of sticking you to my heart
That it tears the flesh as you separate
In all this it bleeds heavy holding a silence
Careful not to disturb you by its beats
Those words of yours still haunt me within
I thought love covers all things
Now I know am a stranger kicked out of your door
Dont want to stand there
My love is not that cheap to decorate your corridor
Never wanted a one last chance
Words would be lifeless on these rules
Numb but not tired, Just closing my eyes to dodge the time.
Love is a beautiful thing, Friendship is a honourable thing
With all their sweetness hiding from these silent days
To recap those wondrous times together.
Hoping A new day will dawn, when you will see what I can
Pushing the needles, trying to move ahead of time
To bring those golden moments from future time.
